I believe there are many different ways to experience the world…that whole two eyes open thing, remember…and what I was trying to say is that I feel like in my ways I’ve been cutting myself off from authentically dealing with what I’m seeing and experiencing here…this doesn’t mean I should be trying to take in all of the pain and experience of everyone around me or anything…that is impossible, inappropriate, and completely unuseful for anyone…however if I can exist in a situation that is filled with pain and injustice (and lots of good things too…it’s not like everyone is just crying and miserable here), and I’m not feeling anything…then I know that there’s something wrong…I’m not bringing my full self into the situation.

Catch the difference? It’s not an issue of bringing the whole WORLD into me…it’s an issue of trying to put more of my whole SELF into the world, and into my experiences in the world.

That’s what I’m going for…make more sense?

While I didn’t view the last post (or any of your posts, for that matter) as dry, I know what a struggle it can be to address all the interpretations and complexities of a situaion in this medium. Posts are often short, to the point, and revolve around one or two significant thoughts. Plus, as both a travel journal of experiences and a public outlet for analyzing those experiences , your authentic voice is somewhat disguised and reading between the lines seems more necessary.

But something struck me toward the end of this post. Maybe we aren’t meant to hold in all the pain of the world. What is the point of that? I hear you say that you don’t want to feel disconnected but what is the connection that you desire? Excuse my bluntness, but it doesn’t sound very healthy or empowering but I don’t think I got what you were striving for with this post. Hence the questions…

Maybe this should have been emailed to you personally but I’m using the comments feature because I went to all the work to set them up.